Friday, 25 January 2013
Quotes on Reading
“If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all.”
― Oscar Wilde
“The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you'll go.”
― Dr. Seuss, I Can Read With My Eyes Shut!
“You can never get a cup of tea large enough or a book long enough to suit me.”
― C.S. Lewis
“What really knocks me out is a book that, when you're all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it. That doesn't happen much, though.”
― J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye
“Do not read, as children do, to amuse yourself, or like the ambitious, for the purpose of instruction. No, read in order to live.”
― Gustave Flaubert
Monday, 21 January 2013
For those who need Inspir4tion...
Not my epiphany.
Tonight, on August 25th, 2012, at 4:34 a.m... I have made an epiphany. I watched a video on confidence, and it honestly brought me to tears. Lindsey (beautybaby44 on YouTube) explained that she was confident because she learned to accept herself for who she is. She’s honestly such a beautiful person inside and out. Lindsey made me realize that I need to love myself too. I need to see myself as the beautiful, incredible person that I am. Some of you may know that a few months back, I went through some really tough times. My self-image was completely awful! When I looked in the mirror, all I seen was this ugly, fat terrible teenage girl who wasn’t worth anything. I saw myself as completely worthless. Both of my parents got remarried. My dad remarried when I was 6 years old, and my mom remarried 2 years ago this November. My parents split when I was 8 months old, so I’m not really all that upset about that situation. But in May, my mom and her husband decided they were divorcing. It was completely terrible. In June, I could have sworn my Dad and his wife were going to split too. They were constantly fighting and it was awful. My Mom, Dad, and their spouses were screaming at me for everything, just constantly saying I didn’t appreciate anything, and anything bad a parent could say to their daughter, so I felt like the reason they split/were about to split was my fault. I blamed myself for everything. In March though, things were the worst… I honestly hated myself so much... So much that it led to self-harm. The intensity of the cuts kept increasing. It soon became an addiction. My birthday though, was the worst. That’s the night that my Mom, her husband and my grand-parents found out I cut myself. It was the worst birthday in HISTORY! My dad still doesn’t know... I made everyone promise not to tell him. I don’t exactly plan on him ever finding out. Writing all this down actually is harder than I thought it would be. Anyways, back to the main topic. Confidence. Like I said, I was the most insecure person you could find, anywhere. I thought my stomach was too big; I hated my hair color, and the way it naturally fell. I thought my eyes were too big, and my nose was too small. Every flaw I could possibly find about my appearance, I found. I hated my personality a lot worse. I was -- and still am, just not as bad -- a HUGE bitch. I was horrible to everyone just because I hated myself. I was too scared to do anything in front of anyone because I was scared of what they would think of me. It started to affect my relationships with people. My best guy friend in the world, I made him cry because of my self-harm. Myself and my boyfriend went through some tough times because of it too. My best friend though, we went through the toughest issues. She self-harmed too.. and we should have been there to help each other through it, but we weren’t. We were too busy focusing on our own problems (that were very different by the way, so helping each other would have been tough in the first place) to even concentrate on the other person, and that caused us to resent each other, so much. We constantly fought because we didn’t know how to cope with things, and with us both being such wrecks it was tough. It really was. But now, after I watched Lindsey’s video on YouTube, I can honestly say, my opinion of myself has changed. I’m a more confident person than what I was 3 months ago. I know that improving my confidence isn’t just going to be a one night thing, and she explained that her journey to confidence took time, and I know mine will too. She said to go look in the mirror and point out all of the positive thing about myself instead of the negatives, and I realized that I am beautiful. I decided to find the 5 things I like most about myself, and I picked my eyes, my hair, my smile, my size, and my figure. My eyes are a beautiful shade of blue, that varies to a green, based on what I’m wearing, or my make up or such things. My hair is golden in the summer, and it’s so easy to style, and when it’s straightened, I honestly think it’s so pretty. My smile is kind of crooked, which I think is quirky/cute, and I love my smile so much more with my braces, and I just love my smile. My size is kind of, I don’t know, odd. I’m 5’3 and I weigh 110 pounds, which isn’t exactly the best weight, but I’m confident with it... My legs and arms are a great size for my shape, but the only thing that could use improvement is my stomach, it could be a little flatter, but you know what? I’m not going to worry about it, because I’m ok with me, and the way I am. Last but not least, my figure. I’m curvy, but not overly. Sure, my breasts and my butt could be a little bigger, but I’m not gonna sweat over something that stupid and pointless! I’m not going to let something a little and stupid like that get to my head. I’m perfectly fine with who I am! Back to the bitch subject, yes, I’m rude, I’m obnoxious, but that’s who I am! I’m only like that to you, if you’re like that to me. If you’re nice to me, I’ll be the sweetest person ever to you. It’s just the way it is. I’m not going to judge you, I’m seriously not, because I know the pain of being judged poorly by others, and it hurts. It really does. But in conclusion I’m just going to say, I’m going to continue to work on my confidence, and I’ll work towards never self-harming again, ever, so I’ll basically work on me, and accepting myself for who I am. I’m not going to have a huge ego, and I’m not going to be stuck-up and full of myself, but I’m going to be confident, and I’m going to love myself. I am beautiful, and there’s nothing you or anyone else can do to change that opinion! In the words of Christina Aguilera,” I am beautiful in every single way, and words can’t bring me down.” When I feel I’m ready, I’m going to go a full week without a single ounce of makeup, I don’t care about any events that are happening during that week, I’m going to go all natural. I really hope everyone who reads this, is inspired. You honestly, are all so beautiful. I love you and all your quirky little flaws. They’re what makes you, you. I love you, remember that. I love myself also. That’s right. I love myself, and I am beautiful, regardless.
Tonight, on August 25th, 2012, at 4:34 a.m... I have made an epiphany. I watched a video on confidence, and it honestly brought me to tears. Lindsey (beautybaby44 on YouTube) explained that she was confident because she learned to accept herself for who she is. She’s honestly such a beautiful person inside and out. Lindsey made me realize that I need to love myself too. I need to see myself as the beautiful, incredible person that I am. Some of you may know that a few months back, I went through some really tough times. My self-image was completely awful! When I looked in the mirror, all I seen was this ugly, fat terrible teenage girl who wasn’t worth anything. I saw myself as completely worthless. Both of my parents got remarried. My dad remarried when I was 6 years old, and my mom remarried 2 years ago this November. My parents split when I was 8 months old, so I’m not really all that upset about that situation. But in May, my mom and her husband decided they were divorcing. It was completely terrible. In June, I could have sworn my Dad and his wife were going to split too. They were constantly fighting and it was awful. My Mom, Dad, and their spouses were screaming at me for everything, just constantly saying I didn’t appreciate anything, and anything bad a parent could say to their daughter, so I felt like the reason they split/were about to split was my fault. I blamed myself for everything. In March though, things were the worst… I honestly hated myself so much... So much that it led to self-harm. The intensity of the cuts kept increasing. It soon became an addiction. My birthday though, was the worst. That’s the night that my Mom, her husband and my grand-parents found out I cut myself. It was the worst birthday in HISTORY! My dad still doesn’t know... I made everyone promise not to tell him. I don’t exactly plan on him ever finding out. Writing all this down actually is harder than I thought it would be. Anyways, back to the main topic. Confidence. Like I said, I was the most insecure person you could find, anywhere. I thought my stomach was too big; I hated my hair color, and the way it naturally fell. I thought my eyes were too big, and my nose was too small. Every flaw I could possibly find about my appearance, I found. I hated my personality a lot worse. I was -- and still am, just not as bad -- a HUGE bitch. I was horrible to everyone just because I hated myself. I was too scared to do anything in front of anyone because I was scared of what they would think of me. It started to affect my relationships with people. My best guy friend in the world, I made him cry because of my self-harm. Myself and my boyfriend went through some tough times because of it too. My best friend though, we went through the toughest issues. She self-harmed too.. and we should have been there to help each other through it, but we weren’t. We were too busy focusing on our own problems (that were very different by the way, so helping each other would have been tough in the first place) to even concentrate on the other person, and that caused us to resent each other, so much. We constantly fought because we didn’t know how to cope with things, and with us both being such wrecks it was tough. It really was. But now, after I watched Lindsey’s video on YouTube, I can honestly say, my opinion of myself has changed. I’m a more confident person than what I was 3 months ago. I know that improving my confidence isn’t just going to be a one night thing, and she explained that her journey to confidence took time, and I know mine will too. She said to go look in the mirror and point out all of the positive thing about myself instead of the negatives, and I realized that I am beautiful. I decided to find the 5 things I like most about myself, and I picked my eyes, my hair, my smile, my size, and my figure. My eyes are a beautiful shade of blue, that varies to a green, based on what I’m wearing, or my make up or such things. My hair is golden in the summer, and it’s so easy to style, and when it’s straightened, I honestly think it’s so pretty. My smile is kind of crooked, which I think is quirky/cute, and I love my smile so much more with my braces, and I just love my smile. My size is kind of, I don’t know, odd. I’m 5’3 and I weigh 110 pounds, which isn’t exactly the best weight, but I’m confident with it... My legs and arms are a great size for my shape, but the only thing that could use improvement is my stomach, it could be a little flatter, but you know what? I’m not going to worry about it, because I’m ok with me, and the way I am. Last but not least, my figure. I’m curvy, but not overly. Sure, my breasts and my butt could be a little bigger, but I’m not gonna sweat over something that stupid and pointless! I’m not going to let something a little and stupid like that get to my head. I’m perfectly fine with who I am! Back to the bitch subject, yes, I’m rude, I’m obnoxious, but that’s who I am! I’m only like that to you, if you’re like that to me. If you’re nice to me, I’ll be the sweetest person ever to you. It’s just the way it is. I’m not going to judge you, I’m seriously not, because I know the pain of being judged poorly by others, and it hurts. It really does. But in conclusion I’m just going to say, I’m going to continue to work on my confidence, and I’ll work towards never self-harming again, ever, so I’ll basically work on me, and accepting myself for who I am. I’m not going to have a huge ego, and I’m not going to be stuck-up and full of myself, but I’m going to be confident, and I’m going to love myself. I am beautiful, and there’s nothing you or anyone else can do to change that opinion! In the words of Christina Aguilera,” I am beautiful in every single way, and words can’t bring me down.” When I feel I’m ready, I’m going to go a full week without a single ounce of makeup, I don’t care about any events that are happening during that week, I’m going to go all natural. I really hope everyone who reads this, is inspired. You honestly, are all so beautiful. I love you and all your quirky little flaws. They’re what makes you, you. I love you, remember that. I love myself also. That’s right. I love myself, and I am beautiful, regardless.
Sunday, 20 January 2013
Google & Apple
...Google Maps and YouTube integration into previous versions of iOS was a great thing...
Hello webites. Today I want to touch on the topic of Google and Apple.
I wish the two companies would just smarten the hell up and realize that their products worked great together. In an pre-iOS 6 era, Apple's mobile operating system had Google Maps, YouTube and Gmail integrated directly into the os. However, during the development of iOS 6, Apple decided to get "creative" and decided to ask Google for more features like 3D-flyover maps and an updated YouTube app. This made Google Inc. mad for some odd reason and Google then decided to drop their contract deal with Apple.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm glad that Google is still making apps for the iOS platform like Google Maps and the "official" YouTube app; but it's just not the same. These apps do not integrate into iOS. For example, if you go into Contacts and click on an address, you are no longer greeted with the friendly UI of Google Maps. Instead, you get the ugly, inaccurate and just plain stupid UI of Apple Maps powered by Tom-Tom.
I'd love to know what Tim Cooke is doing with his company. I'm near positive Steve did not hand the company to him so that he could do this with iOS. Please, don't get me wrong, Tim's also done a lot of good things for iOS, but removing Google product integration was just stupid.
If the two companies could come together, iOS and Android would be great operating systems. Google could strengthen iOS' Safari browser by integrating some of Chrome's power. Apple could strengthen Android in areas like speed and security.
My point is, if these two companies, Apple and Google, could work together at times, the technology they would get out of it would be simply amazing.
What do you think of this topic? Leave your thoughts in the "comments" section below.
Follow me on Twitter: @spencernoye
Happy blogging!
xx. Spencer
Hello webites. Today I want to touch on the topic of Google and Apple.
I wish the two companies would just smarten the hell up and realize that their products worked great together. In an pre-iOS 6 era, Apple's mobile operating system had Google Maps, YouTube and Gmail integrated directly into the os. However, during the development of iOS 6, Apple decided to get "creative" and decided to ask Google for more features like 3D-flyover maps and an updated YouTube app. This made Google Inc. mad for some odd reason and Google then decided to drop their contract deal with Apple.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm glad that Google is still making apps for the iOS platform like Google Maps and the "official" YouTube app; but it's just not the same. These apps do not integrate into iOS. For example, if you go into Contacts and click on an address, you are no longer greeted with the friendly UI of Google Maps. Instead, you get the ugly, inaccurate and just plain stupid UI of Apple Maps powered by Tom-Tom.
I'd love to know what Tim Cooke is doing with his company. I'm near positive Steve did not hand the company to him so that he could do this with iOS. Please, don't get me wrong, Tim's also done a lot of good things for iOS, but removing Google product integration was just stupid.
If the two companies could come together, iOS and Android would be great operating systems. Google could strengthen iOS' Safari browser by integrating some of Chrome's power. Apple could strengthen Android in areas like speed and security.
My point is, if these two companies, Apple and Google, could work together at times, the technology they would get out of it would be simply amazing.
What do you think of this topic? Leave your thoughts in the "comments" section below.
Follow me on Twitter: @spencernoye
Happy blogging!
xx. Spencer
Friday, 18 January 2013
Standing in the Hall of Fame
I really love this song. It's lyrics actually mean something to me.
To me, it means that you can defeat any odds and rise up against anything if you put your mind to it. Which is exactly what I do.
Hall of Fame feat. Will.I.Am - The Script
Yeah, You could be the greatestYou can be the best
You can be the king kong banging on your chest
You could beat the worldYou could beat the warYou could talk to God, go banging on his door
You can throw your hands upYou can be the clockYou can move a mountainYou can break rocksYou can be a masterDon't wait for luckDedicate yourself and you can find yourself
Standing in the hall of fameAnd the world's gonna know your nameCause you burn with the brightest flameAnd the world's gonna know your nameAnd you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
You could go the distanceYou could run the mileYou could walk straight through hell with a smile
You could be the heroYou could get the goldBreaking all the records that thought never could be broke
Do it for your peopleDo it for your prideNever gonna know if you never even try
Do it for your counrtyDo it for you nameCause there's gonna be a day
When your, standing in the hall of fameAnd the world's gonna know your nameCause you burn with the brightest flameAnd the world's gonna know your nameAnd you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion
On the walls of the hall of fame
Be studentsBe teachersBe politiciansBe preachers
Be believersBe leadersBe astronautsBe championsBe true seekers
Be studentsBe teachersBe politiciansBe preachers
Be believersBe leadersBe astronautsBe champions
Standing in the hall of fameAnd the world's gonna know your nameCause you burn with the brightest flameAnd the world's gonna know your nameAnd you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
(You can be a champion)You could be the greatest(You can be a champion)You can be the best(You can be a champion)You can be the king kong banging on your chest
(You can be a champion)You could beat the world(You can be a champion)You could beat the war(You can be a champion)You could talk to God, go banging on his door
(You can be a champion)You can throw your hands up(You can be a champion)You can be the clock(You can be a champion)You can move a mountain(You can be a champion)You can break rocks
(You can be a champion)You can be a master(You can be a champion)Don't wait for luck(You can be a champion)Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself(You can be a champion)
Standing in the hall of fame
Happy singing,
xx. Spencer
To me, it means that you can defeat any odds and rise up against anything if you put your mind to it. Which is exactly what I do.
Hall of Fame feat. Will.I.Am - The Script
Yeah, You could be the greatestYou can be the best
You can be the king kong banging on your chest
You could beat the worldYou could beat the warYou could talk to God, go banging on his door
You can throw your hands upYou can be the clockYou can move a mountainYou can break rocksYou can be a masterDon't wait for luckDedicate yourself and you can find yourself
Standing in the hall of fameAnd the world's gonna know your nameCause you burn with the brightest flameAnd the world's gonna know your nameAnd you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
You could go the distanceYou could run the mileYou could walk straight through hell with a smile
You could be the heroYou could get the goldBreaking all the records that thought never could be broke
Do it for your peopleDo it for your prideNever gonna know if you never even try
Do it for your counrtyDo it for you nameCause there's gonna be a day
When your, standing in the hall of fameAnd the world's gonna know your nameCause you burn with the brightest flameAnd the world's gonna know your nameAnd you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion
On the walls of the hall of fame
Be studentsBe teachersBe politiciansBe preachers
Be believersBe leadersBe astronautsBe championsBe true seekers
Be studentsBe teachersBe politiciansBe preachers
Be believersBe leadersBe astronautsBe champions
Standing in the hall of fameAnd the world's gonna know your nameCause you burn with the brightest flameAnd the world's gonna know your nameAnd you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
(You can be a champion)You could be the greatest(You can be a champion)You can be the best(You can be a champion)You can be the king kong banging on your chest
(You can be a champion)You could beat the world(You can be a champion)You could beat the war(You can be a champion)You could talk to God, go banging on his door
(You can be a champion)You can throw your hands up(You can be a champion)You can be the clock(You can be a champion)You can move a mountain(You can be a champion)You can break rocks
(You can be a champion)You can be a master(You can be a champion)Don't wait for luck(You can be a champion)Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself(You can be a champion)
Standing in the hall of fame
Happy singing,
xx. Spencer
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
Every Single Time..
This piece gives me the chills, every single time I hear it. It is titled A River Flows In You by Yiruma. It's completely and utterly beautiful. Here is one of my friends thoughts on this piece, from an anonymous source of course.
"This is absolute perfection,
Every time I listen to this beautiful , moving , perfect song I cry . It brings all my emotions to the surface , it just lets me release all my pain. There's just something about it that I am absolute in love with. I suggest you listen to it too .
It's perfect
in every single way."
I agree so much. It's so beautiful. I love it. I'm in love with it.
Our Work Has Paid Off... Partially.
Today, during 5th and 6th period, we had our Student Council surprise party for our Advisor who is leaving our school on Thursday. Things went absolutely perfect! We had pizza, cake, pop, cookies and chips. We watched Pitch Perfect together too!
The event planners and some of the SC members from my class came down 4th period to set up for the party. I had already asked my 4th period teacher if it was okay with her if we missed ALL of that period. She said it was fine as long as we got caught up. So we went and set the entire thing up. Then, right before our advisor was about to be sent up to the party, I had our secretary call each grade nine class and say for all Student Council members to go to room 305 (where we were having the party.)
This is where my fourth period teacher misunderstood things. She thought that the call had meant for us to go down now, not at the start of the period. I later heard from several classmates AND my English teacher that our Mathematics teacher was upset with us. I'm hoping she'll understand my side of the story and will be easy on the rest of the Student Council members.
Getting my stories straight,
xx. Spencer
The event planners and some of the SC members from my class came down 4th period to set up for the party. I had already asked my 4th period teacher if it was okay with her if we missed ALL of that period. She said it was fine as long as we got caught up. So we went and set the entire thing up. Then, right before our advisor was about to be sent up to the party, I had our secretary call each grade nine class and say for all Student Council members to go to room 305 (where we were having the party.)
This is where my fourth period teacher misunderstood things. She thought that the call had meant for us to go down now, not at the start of the period. I later heard from several classmates AND my English teacher that our Mathematics teacher was upset with us. I'm hoping she'll understand my side of the story and will be easy on the rest of the Student Council members.
Getting my stories straight,
xx. Spencer
Monday, 14 January 2013
The Source of My Frustration
Normally I am a calm an level headed person with the exception that one little event can turn everything sour.
Like today, for example. It was last period at school and we were in Home Economics. Today we were baking cookies which got off on the wrong foot because no one wanted to help anyone and no one wanted anyone's help. Anyhow, that eventually got better but then went sour again when it came time to clean up and our cookies still weren't done. Then, to add to the frustration, the Honours Band students at my school were called down to the lobby to get information on our upcoming Honours Band Weekend and Concert.
Of course, they weren't done with me yet. Then, the Administration Assistant called all bus contacts down to the office. Bus Contacts is a thing we do in Student Council where we bring important information out to the bus drivers. So I had all of this stuff to do and keep in mind, I still hadn't gone to my locker to get my bag and coat. So I went and got my stuff all together and then proceeded to take the Bus Contact information out to my assigned bus driver. Since I was running so late, I had to run back to the other end of the parking lot while trying to squeeze through all of the kids trying to get out to the buses. I know what you're thinking, but don't worry, my story is not done yet. Since I wasn't going on the bus, I was going to my grandmothers. She only added to my frustration more with all of the questions she asked me as we drove home.
The worst part about this is that she never did anything wrong. She was just asking simple questions like "How was your day?" and "What's new?" I don't even know why I got mad at her. I guess I was just trying to calm down and it was almost like she was interrupting my very own method of coping with my anger. I do realize that I need to learn to control my anger. I take my anger out on the stupidest things and for the stupidest reasons. I get mad over the little things and it usually ends up getting me in more trouble than the bigger issues would entirely because of my anger. I think I'll set that as a goal for this year. To learn to control my anger towards people. I'm a nice person, I truly am. Just sometimes, I get frustrated and people upset me.
Here goes nothing,
xx. Spencer
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